and the day

entah kenapa perasaan saya sangat campur aduk sekali belakangan ini, perasaan senang,kesal,merasa tak dihargaipun saya rasakan. saya berfikir, mungkin saya sedang banyak fikiran, karena beberapa hari kebelakang kinerja otak saya memang sedikit lebih banyak dibanding biasanya.

tapiiii ada yang mengganjal 1 hal yaitu,

about our relatioship hemm

we aren't maintain our relationship longer, for first time i was convinced that this will work well, but it's just in my mind, but situation has been talk deferent. so many things i feel i am comfrotable with him but, so many things too i feel i dont like. i realize that he is a childish one, but i think when we are together slowly will disapear, but unfortunatly not.
i feel he does not appreciat me as his girl, there is a few his acted out of limits of a patners.
i telled maria and my other best friend about this, they are really mad, "they said it's not funny to acted like that,because you are his girl not friend, an outrageous joke!" 
she wants to speak up about that with him, but i forbid her.
maybe i can't explain what his acted, because it's a privacy just me my best friend and God know it, and i was embarassed to tell.
formerly, before the "exated day" i loved, but after it all, after his acted i turned 180 degrees.
in other side i love, but in other side too i hate really really hate!
this is my first experience, but i dont regret it, because it was my choice. 

and the day we ended our relationship.